i get it. you probably have a lot of people that have said oh look at me look at me ive been auditioning for 25 years blah blah blah. i applaud the dedication. but they havent done the real work. you see...ive been watching survivor since i was an actual toddler. watching rob and amber propose is a core memory of mine. ive lost so much money on survivior drafts (thank you rachel lamina for finally getting be the dub). i make survivor wednesdays an event. i always said wow. i should make my audition video. i could do this. but i knew in my heart. no i couldnt. i dont have the will. i dont have the mental strength. but heres the thing. i finally do. i know i can overcome whatever you throw at me jeff. i may not be able to give as much as that freak with the huge arms, but trust i will give you MY ALL. a run for the ages. i will trust myself and my gut while focusing on the lasting relationships you can truly have with the people on the island with you. the game of survivor is beautiful because it can be a game of such interesting social dynamics. all these different options you have to weight, what can you trust what cant you trust, and at the end of the day you have to trust YOUSELF. jeff, i wouldnt have trusted myself before. i wouldve gotten shy, scared to share, scared to be wrong. i wouldnt give everything i could. but jeff. im ready. and heres how ill prove it. this pile behind me has been sitting behind me since i moved into this house a year and a half ago. i would look worse than this if i hadnt developed the mental will and the self trust that you talked about. this is the last hurdle i have to jump before my mom comes over to paint. here jeff. right here. im going to make this area spotless. for individual immunity. final four. this is for my trip to the final. there are variety of piles here. they all have already been organized, they just need to find their home. some to the garage, some to a car, others need to stay in this room. ive been putting this off for two months. but i want to be on surviovr so bad im going to prove to you how strong my mental willpower is for you and your show jeffery. _________clean room really fast just to prove how you can lock tf in_____________. look what i can do for you jeff. now imagine its a million dollars on the line. how far ill push. after all, i love rice. plus i have naturally curly hair so you know i would get super island hot. ill give everything for you jeffery. ill give you cunning, ill give you drive, ill give you passion. and if i can yap this long in an audition video, imagine those confessionals. let me tell the story. let me look at all the relationships that surround me and transpire through all the theories in the confessional booth. i want to be like cochran and his rock. i love survivor, my whole mental health journey was leading me to you.